July 21, 2014 by MrVente
It’s the Summer. I haven’t really blogged a lot this past year, but now that I have a little bit of free time on my hands, I figure why not get going with it again!
This past year was the toughest one of my career professionally, emotionally, and physically; one that included me developing an eye condition called Central Serous Retinopathy (CSR) in my left eye that resulted in temporary blurriness, distorted vision and, at time, loss of eyesight. The cause of my CSR, which is a build up of fluid in the back of the eye, according to my eye specialist was stress. It was manifesting itself in this eye condition!
Nonetheless, I want to move on from the year and learn from the experience. It wasn’t always difficult because there were plenty of amazing, positive things that happened particularly by the end of the school year including my class being part of the Luminato Arts Festival. And as I have had time to rest and reflect, I can say with all honesty that I actually miss a lot of my students.
Though there were some challenges and there were days when I felt so ineffective and helpless. There were days when I felt like I wasn’t getting through to many of my students despite trying things to build relationships and community in the classroom.
Then I receive this card from 2 of my Gr. 8 girls who were graduating….
I’ve gotten notes saying that I was a student’s favourite teacher, which is very flattering, but this card in particular, hit me hard. When I thanked the students for it, I was very emotional and couldn’t speak. I was especially taken by the student realizing that I didn’t give up on her despite the challenges. At our end of the school year staff meeting, I shared this with the staff. I barely could speak because I was so touched by it still, as were many of my fellow staff members. It’s messages like these that ignite that fire again, rejuvenating me and bringing me back to why I do what I do. This is not a job for me, this is my passion, this is my life! Those days when I’m feeling like I want to throw my hands up and give up, I can read this card, and know that I do make a positive difference in a child’s life!